i hate it when i get too attached to someone,an animal or something.
i get upset and sometimes becomes a bit bitter when its gone.

blegh

it's funny how i could be really childish and manja with just one person.

honestly,i'm SO tired already.i got myself back to how it was before,lost and confused.
i feel like i should just drop everything on the cold hard floor and leave.i think all my actions are obvious enough.i'm just really dissapointed that its still left unseen.

yet,i have no idea why i still bother to stick around.

would be nice if somehow someone could just lift me up and bring me away from all this confusion and feeling of uncertainty.i don't wanna burden myself with thoughts like this any longer.
it's not even close to healthy for me.

HAHA berani lah sia main-main lagi.i hope you'll not take another step and cross the line.you may not want to see me unleash my heartless,stone-turned heart inside of me.

i'm at a point where i don't which plan to start first.
i'm at a point where i still can't step out of my comfort zone.
i'm at a point where i couldn't decide whether to let someone enter life.
i'm at a point where i'm still having a hard time letting the guilt go away.
i'm at a point where i couldn't stop thinking about my future.
i'm at a point where i have to decide between standing up or giving up.

damn.i'm tired.

Airina Roslan
Amy Begum
Suraya Khan

i am proud to say that i'm blessed for having these three people in my life.this year has been most challenging for the four of us.we had to deal with alot of things.anyway,i'm really glad that they didn't leave me alone when i was in a downfall.i remember a few months ago when i felt so alone 'cause i didn't confront both Amy and Sino about certain things.i'm glad i decided to do that after keeping it to myself for so long.despite all of our stuborn selves,we managed to help each other out.i got happier after spm,we got closer and closer like how it was back then.i noticed that i'm always in a happy mood recently.
WEEEEEEELL,how i can i not be happy when all they've done is making me happy and cheerful all the time? kan kan kan.

however,pushing other people away have become a habit of mine...suddenly.
i KNOW i need to stop doing so.it is not nice and really rude of me. :/
ever since i've encountered so much problems,i've started become more alert and proctective of myself.I HATE BEING HURT AND FEELING STUPID.
so,i guess that's why i just start to ignore or talk/chat less with other friends.

okay dah.i'll change for the better.

ah..am in the right moment to start blogging.

2011 was definitely one of the most challenging year that i've been through.

i) getting ready for spm
ii) problems with/between bestfriends
iii) upsetting breakup
iv) kept winding myself away from my priorities

v) self discover

i know the world has WAY bigger problems than mine and i shouldn't whine much.still,i just can't help it.the pain inside me aches like crazy.
well,i'm not hurting as much as before but heck,i could still feel it.sometimes,i actually wonder how i'm still proudly standing up with a smile on my face.

ok arh sebenarnya nak kata cam bangga lah kan that i'm actually that strong.

lol okay,i shall stop bragging.

anyway,my main point of posting this is to say that don't give up when you're suddenly or constantly facing challenges in your life.every cloud has a silver lining.
with all these things going on in your life,its just gonna make you stronger.you're not gonna realize that until you sit down,take deep breaths and calm yourself down.so,stop hurting or blaming yourself.

♥

i should really start blogging now.fingers! i command you to work!

well hello blogger.i missed you!

am facing so much challenges this month.
losing faith in love.